Thank you for the responses! It’s much appreciated.
Nuts are a bit of a grey area for me. If I was healthy I’d have no problems eating them, it’s just I’ve read reports from people with inflammatory/auto-immune diseases saying that they can increase your levels of inflammation. It’s a tough one, as the weight gain is probably the most important thing for me; I just don’t want to run the risk of triggering my arthritis. God, I never thought I’d see the day where I’m weighing up the pros & cons of nuts. What happened to me?
I’m feeling quite a bit better today. I woke up after what must’ve been 12 hours of sleep & had a look around a few antique dealers with my Mum. I happened upon a very ugly California Raisins money box & contemplated buying it for my sister. I decided against it in the end, as she already has more novelty items than she knows what to do with. She’d have loved it, I just don’t think she’d have thanked me for adding to her collection of tat. It was a thing of beauty, though.
I’m at the hospital again tomorrow for an appointment with Prof. Sanders. My stomach’s been playing up for the last couple of weeks & I’ve also lost weight that I can’t really afford to be losing. Hell, I’ve actively been trying to gain weight & yet this happens. Here’s hoping he might be able to give me some advice on how to gain weight whilst sticking to a healthy, gluten free diet. So far I’m planning on eating more avocado & cooking with more coconut oil. If anyone has other ideas for ways I can gain weight in a healthy fashion it’d be much appreciated!
Blergh, today hasn’t been the best. I’ve been awake since 7pm yesterday (sorting my body clock out) and I was getting ready to sleep at around midday before my chest decided it was time to pulsate rapidly & make it feel like I was being kicked from the inside out. It’s been feeling uncomfortable for a couple of days now but today it’s much more noticeable.
I got a lift down to the doctors about an hour ago & luckily he doesn’t think there’s any aortic issues going on. He’s not sure exactly what’s causing it to be more troublesome than usual, but he expects it’ll pass soon. It’s just a nuisance as it’s distracting enough to stop me from sleeping, even though I’ve been awake for nearly 24 hours.
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP. :(
Late night thoughts
I’m feeling rather lonely tonight. Sarah took on another job recently & we haven’t been able to coordinate as much time to talk with each other as we usually do. Don’t get me wrong, we still talk plenty; I’m just finding the adjustment difficult. I suppose the root of the problem is that 90% of my social contact is with her. If I’m not talking to her, I don’t have much contact with anyone. My friends are all busy getting on with their lives, their jobs & their relationships. We generally socialise as a group, and with so many of them holding down full time jobs it makes organising anything nigh-on impossible.
I don’t put myself in many positions to make new friends. Tumblr’s undoubtedly been my biggest outlet over the years and the people I’ve met through this website have been incredible. It’s both a blessing and a curse, I think. The upside is that I think you’re all wonderful people. I follow such a variety of contrasting personalities with vastly different passions in life… It’s mind blowing to me. There’s just so many of you that I’d love to call my friend.
This leads to the inevitable drawback: the aspect of unattainability. People are dotted all across the globe, each with their own life to live. Tumblr provides these small snapshots into the lives of fantastic people; it’s just difficult knowing that that’s all they often are: snapshots. The Internet gives us the ability to maintain connections, but it never truly feels ‘right’ until you’re able to spend time with that person. You soon realise every nuance you’ve been missing out on once you’re reunited with someone.
One of my closest friends moved to Australia a few years ago. He was the droll, sarcastic member of our group. We were probably the most alike; similar sense of humour, taste in music, sports, you name it. We’ve managed to keep in touch regularly since he moved, but it’s just not the same as him being here. We’d often end up sitting in my front room once everyone else had gone to bed, and with each passing minute, our built-in pretences would drop. The result of which proved to be some of the most honest, personal conversations I’ve had with anyone. It was only when we’d see the sun rising that we’d realise how long we’d been talking for. I miss that feeling.
Another day with very little of note to talk about. My stomach’s been playing up again so I’ve taken the opportunity to motor my way through SoA. Midway through season 3 at the moment & so far, so good. I don’t have the same desperate urge to watch each subsequent episode as I did with Breaking Bad, although I suppose the comparison is a touch unfair. I swear my love affair with that show has made it infinitely more difficult for me to enjoy anything else. I think I’m still in mourning.
Ah well, my health may be getting me down again but at least I’ve got Netflix to keep me company.
Woke up this morning to a headache & an angry looking non-blanching rash on my arm. It’d be worrying if it wasn’t for the fact it happens every few months & I have the same symptoms each time.
I’m feeling pretty wretched so I figure I’ll spend most of today in bed watching season two of SoA. For the people who’ve watched it: which season was your favourite?