Just finished watching the latest True Detective & now I’m getting ready to pick up Sarah! It’s a good job my sleep’s been so erratic lately as I found myself wide awake at 2 am after a full nights sleep. Excellent.
I can’t tell you how relieved I am to finally be seeing her again. There’s been times in the last 12 months where I’ve felt further removed from myself than I have at any other point in my life and it feels like I only become fully reattached when I have Sarah by my side. When we’re apart it’s like living with this void that you’re still connected to. I still see her and talk with her for hours every day; it just doesn’t match up to that feeling of being able to put my arms around her.
I also feel like I have a lot of ground that I need to make up. Since my health hit a new low I’ve had to really focus my energy into getting healthy again. While I know this is the right thing to do, I don’t feel like I’ve been able to give as much of myself to Sarah as a result. I’ve had to become so focused on being regimented that I’m sure I’m a far more irritable person as a result. Here’s hoping my health will keep improving and I’ll have the energy to be a better person soon.
Right, time to get going!